Tasha, my dear Tasha,
You have asked of me a simple request, yet the answers can be quite complicated. Answers from the soul. This blog’s name – “close to his edge” – is directly from the YES song “Close to the Edge”, a symphonic composition of 20 minutes plus. Much of your training has involved music, and you have evolved in your growth through many, many musical compositions, some of which have been included over time on this blog.
“From the soul” implies spirituality, and yes, spirituality is an inherent component of life, and thus, bdsm as well as a dom/sub relationship. After reading this, close your eyes and listen to this song. Embrace yourself! Love yourself! To me, your questions are natural, organic. A self-confirmation, yet asked without doubt.
The questions may not be answered in the order presented, as life and our value systems evolve continuously. Exhibitionism is nothing more than freeing oneself from constraints and sharing it with others, yet others may not be ready for such freedom in their speck of life as they know it. Voyeurism is similar. Simply, it too is the celebration of freedom, the freedom of another soul on the spectrum of life. Both are perfectly natural.
What is a perfect orgy? An orgy is much more than sexual. It may not involve sex at all. A five course meal, shared with friends, each course prepared and presented perfectly is a perfect orgy. Five players on a basketball court, coalescing for the benefit of the entire team. An orchestra, seemingly playing without effort yet each note works with those presented by others.
The gathering of bodies for the sole purpose of pleasure for all is also complicated, and the perfect gathering rarely happens. I’ve never experienced it, and may never. It is fun trying though! One and all must be comfortable in their own skin, and willing to share their body with others. My perfect orgy would include at least 2 men and 3 women. All know each other well, both in vanilla and bdsm life. Then each would know the desires of the others, and they in return would know of yours.
You have gifts. One of yours, Tasha is compassion. This carries over to all aspects of life! Your body. Your cunt. Your breasts. Your mouth. Your ass. All of your erogenous zones. These are all gifts. Sharing your gifts with others is natural, including another woman! My primary objective in your training is for you to be whole, to experience this life to the fullest extent. This, in and of itself gives me pleasure.
Sharp! Distance! How can the wind with its arms all around me…? We all have rituals. Awakening, making coffee, brushing our teeth. Meditating. Praying. BDSM is no different. Bondage. Pain. Various deprivations. Each is for a reason, a living and loving reason. Growth is not painless. If one never loses, one cannot enjoy fully the fruits of victory, personal peace. As your Master, I derive pleasure simply from witnessing your growth as you experience all of these things. The collar is a symbol of many, many things. Acceptance of yourself. I know you cherish your collars. Your devotion to me on all levels. Your desire to please me, and serve. Why? Because you receive a type of grace in the process. Similar to going to communion at church.
Your desire for pain is more your own than mine. My concept of pain in the sexual sense is to heighten your gift – orgasm after orgasm. There is a thin line between pain and pleasure. From your experience, you have taken pain to a different level – personal pleasure and peace from pain itself! But, another aspect is similar to that of the collar – being marked by me. This, as the collar, takes our love and devotion to another level. And it is good. Symbols. Whole inner peace is attained by few, and attained in different ways by each individual.
Gold, stainless nail, torn through the distance of man. Jesus. The Son of God. Spiritually, how does this belief fit in? Atheists? The anti- Christ believers? I’ve seen all good people turn their heads each day I’m on my way. In my speck of this life, I believe an atheist has to believe they are, in fact God. There is much more in this universe (and others) than we will ever know in this life. We may find out more in the next one, but that mystery remains unseen. Such is the same in the Master/submissive relationship.
Dichotomies exist in the Dom/sub existence. But they exist in the vanilla world too! Is a Master somehow better than their sub? It’s the exact opposite. This Master strives to elevate the submissive to be whole, spiritually, emotionally, physically and mentally. Some marriages work, many don’t. Why? It is unique to find another person that makes one whole in every way. This is how poly fits into my understanding of life. I have many, many interests. Doesn’t it follow that you do as well? Some of them mesh. Yet some do not. And as in the vanilla world, compromise is necessary. Why? Because as your Master, I am not better than you. Why should we limit ourselves to some strict understanding of our existence? Seems to me this limits one’s ability to grow, learn and experience their full potential.
Close to the Edge. This song has been around for over 40 years now. It took me over 20 years to learn the meaning, and it’s only the meaning to me. Someone else may interpret it in a totally different way. There is no right or wrong. It’s peace for each, so that that same peace can be shared with others.
YES Tasha, you will do anything I ask. Why? Because you know I am a forgiving Master. Master also learns, grows and experiences from you! You are not perfect. Neither am I. We are human. You know the precepts. Trust. Respect. Laughter. Communication. These are the basics of life, and a Dom/sub relationship. The rest follows….Down at the end, ‘round by the corner, go to the sea, run to the sun! seasons will pass you by…look right away….I get up, I get down….the eyes of honesty cannot cheat.
YES, My slave. The truth is written all along the page. I love you. I will protect you, always.